got up at 8 so i could be at work by 11:30. a drunk man with a flask sat directly next to me on the trolley when the seat in front of me was available. i got banished to a lonely game for my entire shift. i tried to buy chips from the vending machine and they got stuck. i didn’t study for my math and history tests during my lunch like i said i would. i bumped into you walking back to the area. literally bumped into you, like you’d never left and you were still this piece of furniture i’d crawl to and laugh and cuddle with. and our hugs are awkward now and i experienced being actually speechless, like in the movies, for the first time. seeing you made me shake for the next hour. i still don’t know what to say. i wish you’d come back and things could be warm and easy, like they used to be. there’s a lot that’s different and i want to tell you how i’ve changed and that i just might maybe deserve you now but it’s hard to get our eyes to stay quiet long enough for either one of us to get a word in. everyone around is on their toes, expecting an action, a reaction, and i feel naked again. i’m foolish and tired and in a stupid uniform and you’re wearing your gambit t-shirt and walking away with her.
[Picture: Background — a six piece pie style colour split, alternating purple and green. Foreground — a picture of a fox. Top text: “ Go to college party ” Bottom text: “ Drunkenly share Deborah Tannen’s linguistics theories about the differences in men and women’s conversational styles. ”]
I DID THIS ON SUNDAY NIGHT!!! OMG!!
freaking sex, lies, and conversations and my dumb philosophy teacher making me compare it all to plato.
i have a six and a half hour vending shift today. and my boss is a guy i hooked up with over the summer who cried when i didn’t want to be his girlfriend and when i went to a party with another guy a week later.